Sorry this isn't longer....

So I've decided that when you haven't seen someone who you really care about for a long time you're like a starving man at a buffet. The starving man eats and eats and eats until he's about to burst, but will not leave the buffet for fear the food will disappear again.

That's how I've felt all day. If Aaron ever leaves that long again and I can't talk to him.....well, let's not go there. Those were the longest, most horrible days of my life. Today made up for it though.

HOME!!!!!!!!!

So Mom just pointed out to me that the only things I get up willingly at 5:30 AM for are wrestling and picking up Aaron. They both involve Aaron. Go figure.

So, breaking it down to the simplest form: Aaron is the only thing I get up that early for.

I'm SOOOOOO excited for him to be coming home. This has been the longest month of my life, hands down, bar none. I've missed him more than I would have missed my left boob. But, it'll all be over in a few hours.

*happy sigh*

Sorry this isn't beautiful or romantic. I can't think straight. I'll save beautiful and romantic for later.

We make plans, not knowing where they'll take us

So I've got quite a bit to do this week, I think. Well. I hope. I need something to do to distract my mind from how slow time will be moving.

So, here's what I need to do:

1. Buy Sam a shower gift and while I'm at it buy a wedding gift too
2. Buy Blaine and Christa a wedding present.
3. Buy a frisbee for me and Aaron to play with. College kids must learn to throw frisbees. It should be a required class.
4. Get a big beach towel. They're on sale!
5. Possibly buy Aaron a little "I miss you so damn much don't you ever leave again!" present.
6. Hang out with people I've been meaning to hang out with. I'm owed two graduation lunches.

Wow...this upcoming week is going to be a big drain on my wallet. Ouch. And I'd been doing so well. I don't think I've used my debit card in a month. I think that's a new record.

Sorry this blog isn't nearly as profound as the last one. But we all know my profound moments come in fits and bursts and I think if I were to have a profound moment tonight it would be heartbreaking and tearful and I'm just not gonna go there, sister!

Theory on "The Glass Slipper Effect"

Welcome to another episode of "Sarah Writes Her Feelings".

I've been reading too much. Romance novels. They kill me, really.

So tonight I've been thinking about perfect relationships (I think they exist, really. just maybe not the way we've been lead to believe), about give and take (checks and balances, so to speak), and about completion.

Exhibit A: Perfect Relationships

Okay, this really should have come last, since it's sort of the umbrella idea behind this whole thing. What makes a perfect relationship? It's really the perfect combination of the other two things listed about: give & take and completion. Without them, you have friction (and not the good kind), you have problems, you have fights. You want to kill each other. Why? Because you're not practicing the principles upon which good relationships are built. We watch too many movies, read too many books, where the characters are total opposites of each other and it works, so we assume that is the magic formula. Besides, weren't we told that opposites attract? But I don't think that's really the case. I think that on the surface, those people shouldn't work. But they do. Why? Possibly because they understand give & take and the art of completion. Maybe not consciously, but subconsciously. They want to give to their significant other everything they have to offer, but are more than willing to partake in the great things their S.O. has to give. They complete each other because one has what the other doesn't and is more than willing to share that. They are in harmony because their similarities and differences weigh out evenly on the scale. *happy sigh*

Exhibit B: Give and Take

In a good relationships, there has to be lots of give, and some take. You should want to give things to your S.O. and be perfectly happy not to get anything in return. However, if you're in a good relationship, you never have to worry about being reimbursed for your actions. The other half will want to do the same thing. Of course, like the whole "opposites attract" way of thinking, this often backfires when not properly understood. If you give and give and give and give and aren't getting anything in return, you're pouring yourself into a blackhole and you'll feel empty inside, unfulfilled. Which is exactly what's happening. If you're not getting anything in return, maybe you shouldn't be trying. Just because you want someone to be a perfect match doesn't mean they will be. The perfect person will somehow know what to give you, and will be more than happy to take what you give them.

Exhibit C: Completion

Ah yes. Completion. It's kind of an elusive bugger, because you're never sure if it's just all in your head, or real. We all want our S.O. to be the one to complete us, to be our perfect fit. Why? Because we've invested time and energy into them and we want our goddamn fairytale already. So what's the deal with completion? Well......I think most of us know this one. It's when another person makes up for our shortcomings. Think about your best friend. They complete you, right? They know your favorite kind of ice cream and the perfect time to bring it to you. They know just what to say when the world gives you the big middle finger. They finish your sentences when you're not quite sure how to put it. And, best of all, they're probably good at things you're not very good at, like maybe math. That's what we should really be striving for with our completion in our S.O.'s. Someone like a best friend. Which, I think, is why people say they married their best friend. Not because that's the person they can tell anything to, or the person they always run to to fix their problems. But because of the other stuff. They never forget your birthday, or that you hate pickles and mustard. They will watch your favorite movie, even if they hate it. They're not your best friend because you have no one else. They're your best friend because they complete you.

Well, that's my rant for tonight. Hope you enjoyed it. Don't worry. Aaron will be home soon to entertain me and these things wont' be so long and rambly. Hell. They probably won't even come at all.